Essay for2007 Dear Grandma

On the twenty-third day of August, 2007, my grandmother left us. When I was taking a test in the day, I felt some bad premonition that my grandmother would soon die or something like that. I knew that she was not good, but I believed and wished that she could live more than a week. However, the time came unexpectedly.

Her existence was very big for me. She is my father’s mother, and lived in the same town, so we visited her house many times. She always welcomed us and she was glad to see us. My most impressive memory is when I was in hospital. When I was a primary schoolchild, I got pneumonia. It was really hard, and after I was hospitalized, she was worried about me and often visited me. Hospitalized living was so lonely and boring for me, but she always tried to help me to not feel alone and it was really helpful for me. Grandma was a great person.

However, I can not forget my father’s image no matter how much time passes. If I close my eyes, I can still recall my father’s image vividly. He did not cry in front of us, but he absolutely suffered grief at the sad thing. I also suffer at that, but I did not cry except when we saw her off into the cremation and she was in the casket in which she was surrounded by plenty of flowers. Perhaps, the reason why I didn’t cry is I knew about her that her body was not well she had been in hospital for about two years. After my grandfather passed away about 6 years ago, she became less energetic.

Now, about two months have passed since she passed away, but I could not help living without thinking about her and my father. Every time I think about her life.
Every time I ask myself, “Could she spend time happily? Could we help her rightly?”

The greatest suffering is after losing a dear person. Most people try to forget the grief, because it is too cruel, and most people do not want to accept the fact, because it is too sorrowful. However, I think we do not have to forget about the grief even if we can not bear the heart pain any longer. In other words, we should not forget about it. We are all equal before death. It will definitely come sooner or later.
However, we were born of our parents, and they were also born of their parents. This is just a truth. Therefore, we should respect our elders. We also have to accept our dear one’s death and remember them. To remember them will be a great service for the dead.

Therefore, I won’t forget about her, and will have a respect forever. I think she is always watching over me. If you suffer grief at someone’s death, please do not be sorrowful, please do not kill them, but please remember them and keep them alive in your warm heart forever.