Essay for2007 Dear Grandma

On the twenty-third day of August, 2007, my grandmother left us. When I was taking a test in the day, I felt some bad premonition that my grandmother would soon die or something like that. I knew that she was not good, but I believed and wished that she could live more than a week. However, the time came unexpectedly.

Her existence was very big for me. She is my father’s mother, and lived in the same town, so we visited her house many times. She always welcomed us and she was glad to see us. My most impressive memory is when I was in hospital. When I was a primary schoolchild, I got pneumonia. It was really hard, and after I was hospitalized, she was worried about me and often visited me. Hospitalized living was so lonely and boring for me, but she always tried to help me to not feel alone and it was really helpful for me. Grandma was a great person.

However, I can not forget my father’s image no matter how much time passes. If I close my eyes, I can still recall my father’s image vividly. He did not cry in front of us, but he absolutely suffered grief at the sad thing. I also suffer at that, but I did not cry except when we saw her off into the cremation and she was in the casket in which she was surrounded by plenty of flowers. Perhaps, the reason why I didn’t cry is I knew about her that her body was not well she had been in hospital for about two years. After my grandfather passed away about 6 years ago, she became less energetic.

Now, about two months have passed since she passed away, but I could not help living without thinking about her and my father. Every time I think about her life.
Every time I ask myself, “Could she spend time happily? Could we help her rightly?”

The greatest suffering is after losing a dear person. Most people try to forget the grief, because it is too cruel, and most people do not want to accept the fact, because it is too sorrowful. However, I think we do not have to forget about the grief even if we can not bear the heart pain any longer. In other words, we should not forget about it. We are all equal before death. It will definitely come sooner or later.
However, we were born of our parents, and they were also born of their parents. This is just a truth. Therefore, we should respect our elders. We also have to accept our dear one’s death and remember them. To remember them will be a great service for the dead.

Therefore, I won’t forget about her, and will have a respect forever. I think she is always watching over me. If you suffer grief at someone’s death, please do not be sorrowful, please do not kill them, but please remember them and keep them alive in your warm heart forever.

My Birth day☆

Today is my birth day!
Unfortunately,I became 20years old,but my parents and my friends celebrated it.

Anyway, the day my departure for Fiji is coming.
My sick is getting better.

I sometimes feel lack of my English skills,I can not
hear what speaker says.
I am living without using English in this vacation,so
my English skills is getting fall.

I want to change this living,
I hope that the staying in Fiji for three weeks bring out my
will and it will make it better for my life.

It will good chance to have opportunity to use English.

At first...

I had to go back to my hometown because of my funeral.
So I couldn't do my home work which needs to use Internet.
Because there were no Internet cafe.

That's why, I will write about this summer vacation gradually,but
unfornatually, I have been a high fever after back to Tokyo.

I have a really bad headache,and my fever seems to do not go down easily.
I went to a hospital to see a doctor, but it was not just cold.

My body tempreture rose 39.4degrees. I did not realize that I had such a high fever.

I took a blood sample, had urine test, took a CT scan,and took an X-ray examination.

My fever has countinued so long days and something like a swelling found near my lymph gland of neck.

Not sure, but if the swelling formed on lymph or malignant swelling, it will not good for me seriously.

Lastly,the first thing I need is sleeping, so

good night.


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